N_A, Yeah I am always busy. Mostly due to the fact that I actually was someone who had a life before the seperation, and then when I got seperated and read DBing it said to GAL, so I then doubled the amount of activities and hobbies that I do.
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by all the events I have going on, but then I realize that it helps to keep my mind from stressing out.
Well My H and I had a great week last week and the wedding was a blast. My H even talked to one of our old best freinds that was also at the wedding & that he has been immaturely avoiding for the last 6 months. They spoke with people around and even alone.
This was a big baby step, cuz this freind is one of my best from childhood and he is very caring and protective towards me since he is almost like a brother. I was so happy, needless to say.
He also made a comment when the bride and groom were dancing, about how happy he is for them and how they seem like a genuinly happy couple - "like us"- he said as he smiled at me. I was caught off guard. I guess it is because I contstantly worry about him being happy with me or not, and becuase sometimes I feel like I am unhappy dealing with his alcoholism.
I am glad to know that my H is happy with me, I just hope it stays that way.
Last monday, his band didnt play. The band is fizzeling out, but only for a temporary time period. So he went out with his cousin instead and completely blew me off to get wasted. I hate those nights. They are getting easier - now that I am getting more used to it. I know I should be voicing my hurt to him, but I dont know how. I am scared if I said I was mad, that he would leave again. I will stay quiet for now. This will probably be a bad week filled with him binging and blowing me off. Who knows? TIPPER
