okay, its been a while so I thought I give an update.
Last Sunday was my ex's birthday. A couple of weeks earlier she had hinted several times that she wanted me to go all out since it was her 30th b-day. I sent her flowers, chocolates and balloons to her work. She called me up and was very appreciative. After work, she stopped by my place where I had decorated my apartment with balloons, birthday signs, etc. She was surprised and I could tell that that made her happy. Afterward, we went to a very fancy restaurant and had a wonderful conversation. Funny thing is, at the restaurant she told me that I was the type of person she could learn to like. Overall, it was a good night and I honestly didn't want it to end. She later called me up where we talked some more before finally going to bed.
This morning she called me up and asked me why I am being so nice. I told her that I am simply a nice guy. She then told me in a joking matter (although inside I took it as no joke) that she is still not getting back with me and that she sees through me. I responded by saying "who says I want to get back with you" in a joking way. She then said "hay" in such a way that she might as well have said "what do you mean you don't want to get with me." Anyway, I do have to admit I felt like crap after she told me that.
Odd thing is, she was texting me all morning just to txt talk. It was nice. I am still confused as to why she feels the need to have to keep telling me that she is not getting back with me even though I do not bring up the relationship. Although she does that about once or twice a week, it still hurts to hear it and to have to blow it off. I think she sees a lot of changes in me and is still wondering why I am being different - so maybe that is a good thing. Trust does take time.
