the fact that infidelity seems to be so in vouge these days it's often a daily topic.
having to redifine boundaries (well ok bending them to allow this one slip)
spending to much time pondering to what extent the a went (not simply how much if a pa but the how, what, where and why's of the a) I've discovered that the more truth I do know the more my imagination takes it.
dealing with "the label" of being a betrayed spouse by those who know (key for those who haven't told many family and friends about an op...don't) and neg thoughts of self for accepting it.
I was listening to a radio talk show last night where the two hosts (both male, neither married) discussing the kobe case and of course the clinton case and how they are tired of hearing how "strong" the women who put up with infidelity are...believing that if they were truly strong they'd send them packing. They also pointed out how when a woman stands by her man she is called strong but if a man stands by his woman who cheats he is a (well they used some un pretty words) let's just say he's less of a man. I so wanted to call in and simply point out to them the fact that it is easy to make such statements when one has never been married and therefore truly doesn't have a clue what they would do faced with such a scenario..but never the less I was still left feeling like less of a woman for accepting my h's infidelity even if just the supposed ea he claims it to be (can ya sense I still have doubts about that fact)
