I know I can live without him for sure. When he first left, I didn't think I could do it, but now I know I can. I'm not afraid of the divorce, but it would sadden me tremendously. At this point, I'm not sure how much would actually be different if H didn't return since we've been on our own without him since Aug 2006. My mentallity (sp?) would probably change though with the finality of a D.