My worry about being gone for the night is that he will use it against me later, and say "I was so much happier without you there", or something like that. I will probably stay away tonight though. In fact I may just originally say I am going to dinner, then call him late, like around 10, and say that as it got so late, I decided to stay the night with my friend or something.
I DEFINITELY think he's projecting. He completely blames everything on the marriage, because he is not feeling so depressed anymore, that he thinks the only thing left that he's unhappy about is this.
In terms of him grabbing my nose and ear, he has always done this affectionately, and that's how it was last night as well. The arm thing was weird, and I think maybe he wanted to be affectionate, but stopped himself. I think the so skinny thing is probably out of guilt because he knows this situation is having an impact on my health.
The kiss and hug goodbye thing was odd. I haven't had a hug from him in ages. I made no move toward him, and this was completely initiated by him. His actions and words conflict SO much. What I really wish is that he would jut not talk about things for 1 week. That would be so very nice...
Just saw him on IM and let him know that I had mildly high blood pressure, found out at the doctor. He said that we are going through a rough time and need to care for my health. SO annoyed, so I just said it has been high before. He went on again, and I just changed the subject and said I needed to go. I am sick of his guilt and droning on about what a hard time I am going through.
OK...off to the office now to try and do half a day of work anyway!
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
