WOW! God I wish, I wish. But H is cold, seems to avoid me like the plague, even when he is here visiting kids. But while I do fantasize about that "moment" I wonder about the risk. I know H is physical with OW (afterall I know they share his bed - thanks to my D11), but if they've had sex, I worry I should be cautious if I ever have that chance again. b/c to be honest, I dont know where the h#$l OW "has been". I know she has been with H 17yr, but who's to say she hasnt cheated with someone else? So if the moment arrives, do I kill it by rejecting? That was one of H issues with me in the first place. Or do I risk my health?. He would not necessarily have had to wear protection if they've had sex b/c he had vasectomy 10yr ago. And with both of them drinking, there's no telling.
