my story

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I have had a new feeling come over me the past couple days. I think it might be called acceptance. I am just feeling better. It has been a month, I feel stronger overall. I am not all the way there yet as I was reading something that made me laugh out loud hard and the next second I found myself crying. I nearly gave in to a depressed feeling, but then I laughed a bit more, and just sort of accepted it. Maybe that cry was the last vestage of desparation giving way.

I stood up for myself today with H, needed to talk about our son, he was a bit snotty, so I told him we need to work on communicating, and laid out some ground rules for cell phone, ie: if I need him urgently I will text him that, if I need him emergently I will text 911, if I just need to communicate I will leave a voice mail if he doesn't answer, that way he knows if he would need to break out of a meeting for a call. I think that will help, as today he left a meeting when I didn't say he needed to, but he was unsure, and then he was snotty about it.

So I guess that is where I am at. I am getting a life and working on myself, there isn't much more I can do. I am not sure what is going on with him, I guess I can't worry about that.

J