Back to life, back to reality?

[istherehope]

Thanks OD...

I was just about to go to bed, was sitting upstairs, and H walked in...ugh.

He said hi, and then used a nickname, and came upstairs and was joking around. Then he said "wow I've been here 5 minutes aren't you going to argue with me and lay into me?" I said, "things do change. I have no desire to argue with you." He said, "but you're a woman..."

Anyway, now we are both upstairs and watching Scrubs. We've been chatting about books etc., and he mentioned when "I'm here tomorrow I should cook the fish". I just nodded. I am not telling him I won't be here, maybe not even until tomorrow night, will just act like it was a spontaneous decision. This is SOOOO weird.

Actions say he likes me here. His words say he wants the marriage to end. My email was pushy, long, and dreadful, and I know he hasn't seen it yet. Yuck. Anyway, at least I won't see him tomorrow night. I wish I could take back the email, but if I were to reply now again, it would look even worse than it already does. I wish I had his password to his account now so I could delete the email...and he's just asked what I'm doing now. Just told him I was reading email. Confusion galore.

OD I will reread the MLC stages. I had thought maybe if this was his issue, he was toward the end :(.

ITH