Back to life, back to reality?

[istherehope]

Hi OD,

Thanks for your post...unfortunately I already replied. I know, bad move. I just feel pretty hopeless right now, as if it really doesn't matter. It wasn't a DB appropriate reply, so I won't be posting it here...in short I said that I didn't need decisions to be made based on fear of stringing me along, that I wanted to try and be friends over the next few months, and that I thought it was unlike him to give up on something so easily.

I know we're supposed to believe none of what they say, but this is now his consistent message, so I am not sure what to think...

He said he wanted to talk tomorrow. I said I didn't think I would want that. I am going to stay at a friend's house, though I haven't told him this yet, and will just leave a note in the morning.

He's still not home from work, but should be any time. I am going to try and be super-positive when he walks in. I was crying until recently, but now have calmed down a bit.

Enjoy your dinner :).

ITH