Okay - talk about classic MLC

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I know it is hard to stand and I myself have been strugging in here.. especially since last night and today.I found out he came into town to see her, he would not even pick up my sons or daughters phone calls,she has a home of her own but they stayed in motel rooms and ate where we used to eat.that cut like a knife right thru me.Why would they not stay at her home? I gues my H thought I would drive by or something. or then again could be her kids dont agree with their Mom's behaviour.Dating a married man.

Who knows why things happen.I look at your situation back when you were standing in here and I think... now that was hard 8 children no money and a sick child, so what do I have to complain about.I am so blessed but I am very angry right now ... with God, with him ,with her.I have felt that God is so far from me right now.it feels like I forgot how to pray to him.

I know it is just me but I need some encouragement in here. I am tired of it all and it has only ben a little over a year since this madness started.

I dont know if I can make it... I feel as if God is so ashamed of me for doubting and getting angry with him.I feel so alone right now.Please talk to me.. tell me things I need to hear and to keep going ... keep standing....