I went to help my friend who was having her birthday lunch today. We cooked together all morning and then all her friends (mine too) came over. After saying our hello's each and every one of the friends, took time to ask me how I am doing..and ...(this is what I find Incredible..) I answered them with a true to my heart 'I am doing really well, thank you !' 'I am happy and have found my path in life and I'm loving every minute'. They all saw a HUGE change in me...wow, I'm so glad that I have finally got to this point....I know I will still have hard days, but we all have those, even those of us in happy marriages or relationships ...!!
Later on H called the kids to say goodnight. He asked the kids if they wanted him to go Trick or Treating with them...(you have to know that he had told them he didn't want to do it this year because it was too much hassle driving all the way here and all). He asked the kids if they wanted him or mommy to take them, so the kids asked me (whilst he was on the phone) and I said I don't mind, anything is fine for me. THen the kids all said, then we want you both to take us...and I said, ok, but I'll get dressed up like a witch ! H said he'd dress up as God (yep, never ending joke on his side ! )
So, he's picking the kids up tomorrow night instead of Thursday night...still not sure if he's going out to dinner with me and his parents on Thursday, but I have made all the arrangements (babysitter, booked a restaurant) and I plan to have no expectations...The only thing I don't hope is that he comes and brings along ow. Then again, I don't think he would be that disrespectful to me.
It's weird but it kind of feels 'mean' of me, to be going out to dinner with my inlaws and H, whilst ow is not invited, yet a part of H's life by now.
Oh well...
So, I just wanted to end this post by saying that I am so glad that life is looking so good again. I truly am enjoying and Having my Happy Days !
xxxxxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
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