I think I may belong here.

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Not enough unaccounted for time if you know what I mean. So he is using my body instead and probably has been for a while.

That's ok. I would guess that everyone is guilty of that at some time in a M. That's what fansasies are about.

I guess in some ways this could be sorta fun. I don't have any idea why they think women don't have sex just for sex. I guess that would make us all whores.

I think what makes a woman a whore is getting paid for it I don't know how guys think, and I sure don't know how MLC guys think. But women DO have sex just for sex. And I agree with you. You can have fun with this. He's your H and you can do with him whatever you feel comfortable doing. Just protect yourself, if you know that I mean.

Don't worry about missing anything important or doing anything to make this last longer. It is what it is. Don't put that kind of pressure on yourself. Read the DB/DR book and follow the quiet voice in your heart.

Feeling stronger is why we are all here and supporting each other. If you need to be here, it's a wonderful place to be!!

now what I've been thinking? If he wants to see me differently or not at all depending on the day, then maybe it's time for a transformation. I have and continue to change on the inside which he is noticing, but maybe the outside needs a shake up too.

I agree with you on this! Shake away baby. Just don't do anything too drastic all at once. Do you know anything about your competition? (if indeed she is that?)