I can't explain it...I'm having lots of feelings of love. Love for my kids, my life, my job and love for my wayward W.
I think about things alot still but I'm trying a new tactic. I'm just letting myself feel these feelings. Then moving on...
Other thoughts I have are to initiate fleeting bits of contact. A good night text here. A positive response there...I then gague the response. I texted her "Good morning!" last week and she responded "Why?". LOL, I'm not sure if she was asking why my morning was good or something else...lol
I almost feel like I'm in a huge match of emotional chess. There are moves that I can make to influence my opponent, or to make small victories but I don't know what the "right" moves are.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
