James--We are all in this awful mess together. That is why I am holding over here in "Newcomers" instead of "Surviving." Didn't want to leave all of you behind. Also, not quite ready to accept what seems inevitible. Although, everything I have been reading says that accepting reality is part of moving forward.
Journaling Having a so-so day today. Lots to do at work, and I'm grateful for that. Emotions sort of over running everything else. Missing my family again. Thoughts of D6 crying on Sunday and re-reading the article "For The Sake Of The Kids" makes me mad at W for not even considering deeper MC. I just feel like we are leaving behind unturned stones in her rush to D. Truthfully, I really don't know what kind of M we would be able to salvage anyway. My family has taken the position that I will be better off without her and I can agree somewhat to their position. But, it is all about our kids, and the hurt that I see in their faces. For them, I could try my best to forget the pain W has caused me. They see it my way, she sees it hers. OM is nothing but an opportunist and a worm. He doesn't deserve any of the time he gets to spend around our kids.
W said last week or sometime the week before that her atty was forwarding the final agreement to my atty, haven't heard anything so who knows what is going on there. I talked to S yesterday as I was in a store. Couldn't really talk though. He didn't call back last night, tonight probably won't call as well. W is playing games because I have nothing to say to her on the phone.
M42 S12/D9 T17/M12 Bomb 1 3/22/06 Bomb 2 7/11/08 Bomb 3 7/31/08 W Filed 8/1/08 D granted 12/17/08 D Finalized 1/29/09
A man who compromises his principles never had them in the first place.
