I think that going through this for a second time has helped me. I am better at dropping the rope and detaching now. If he doesn't choose to be with me I will not "convince" him it is his job to stay with me. I don't want to be a consolation prize, a duty, an obligation...I want to be someone's "treat", I want to be the person someone thinks about during the day and smiles, and wants to come home to at night.
I will not plead or any of that. I am moving forward b/c that is what H wants and I will not stand in the way. I do not anticipate him skipping down the street grinning anytime soon. Being "free" will not bring him joy. He is choosing not to see joy anywhere and that is not my problem to solve.
