Back to life, back to reality?

[istherehope]

Hi JCJ,

Thank you for the post. Just wondering what positives you still see? I mean I HAD seen positives until yesterday. The only slight one is this weird potentially going to the US thing that really makes no sense to me and even he says is unlikely but still says it. Now even ML is bad in his eyes, because he doesn't feel close to me. This makes me sick just thinking about it. Honestly it is as if he found a book with the most hurtful things you can ever say to someone listed, and started reading them off. I mean even last night he was saying things like how I was emotional over the summer and I never held my feelings back. I was SO good over the summer...

OK you're right that I can control engaging him in the conversations, especially on IM.

Tonight I am going to somehow need to act normal and not bothered. At least he knows I'm sick already, so if I'm not too perky, I can chock it up to illness.

ITH