You were writing as I was posting my latest update. I too am sorry to be here on many fronts, but also glad on several others.
For the record, your fantasy may still come true. This never ends until we say it does, so if you'd like to see that come about, then don't give up on it. However, your working on yourself and getting you stronger and better regardless of what your future holds. That is what DB does for all of us. I'm in the same boat. If XW came running back now, we'd talk, but there'd be a lot of work for her to do and I wouldn't hold my breath on change. So, I'm not waiting. I'm going forward.
As for meeting the BF, it was weird to be sure. I did eyeball him a bit and compare myself to him, but that was about it. He is nice and was pleasant to me - even looked me in the eye, but not in an attempt to intimidate. I appreciated that. Also, it isn't his fault. I would like for him to be more concerned w/ his impact on my D, but basically he is just a collateral piece of the puzzle - and if things stay the same, that piece will become collateral damage as well.
So, I'm not sure why I wasn't bothered by it b/c I do still have feelings for XW, but they have been replaced by a new sense of realism, I think. I want her to be happy, but I'm still on my toes for whatever she throws at me as she's unstable. My main focus is to work on me and then do my best for my D. I can't control what XW does w/ D, but I can do the best I can to let D know she's loved and what her mother is doing is not normal behavior.
So, thanks for coming by and saying hello. I too am looking forward to getting to know more about you.
