Seems most of us are in somber mood tonight. The cold treatment from H is just tearing at my heart. I just feel lonlier and lonlier. Kids told me H invited his parents, whom he's been avoiding alot since this all happened , over for dinner with them at his house Saturday night. I hope OW wasnt there. Everything just makes me feel so alienated and excluded. I need to know if MIL and FIL support H then I will detatch from them too. Time to schedule a coaching session with Vernetta. I still have 4 left
Wedding rings - I lost my original band several years ago at work, replaced with identical, had everything sottered together, then lost whole set about 2 years ago. Very devestating for me, and I think H was more bitter of it than he let on. H left a box on our bathroom counter last anniversary morning after he left for work. I opened it and found beautiful heart shaped solitare. Instead of feeling excited and gushing with gratitude I felt unworthy of it b/c I had been so careless in the past. I did acknowledge and thank H , but told him he "didnt have to do that". H says that was "the camel that broke the camels back". He didnt get the emotional gratitude he expected. He said he was trying to "sweep me off my feet". About a month after that anniversary I was officially diagnosed with depression. H had went for awhile without wearing his ring - I thought it was b/c of his weight change. I noticed he was wearing it again about a month or so before he dropped the bomb, then removed it the night of Fathers Day, letting it hit the bedside nightstand loudly. I shouldve known what was coming. For a couple weeks after he left I wore his ring around my neck and my solitare around my finger. After repeated IDLYA's I took both off and put them away along with other momentos from our years together in a box in the closet. I now look at my packaged wedding gown up on the shelf and wonder what to do with it.
