Hey ladies... my wonderful friends... uggghhh.. Things aren't so great here... but I've been hestitant to post because its just the same old stuff..
Friday night we ended up going to this outside bar with his old classmates (it was only 30 degrees out) not too smart if you ask me.. but I went. We dropped the kids off at my mother's house. I didn't want to stay late because i wasn't feeling that great.. when it came time to leave he didn't want to and actually got mad at me. He had too many drinks. I didn't want to get to my mom's too late (it was about 11pm) as she wanted to go to bed too. He started this big fight with me and i just didn't even want to talk to him. He wouldn't stop though, it made it worse that he had been drinking, and he doesn't drink. anyways, I let most of what he said go, but of course it doesn't make our relationship stronger in my eyes, just another jab in my heart.
Sat. was my nieces party, her 1st bday. it was ok. i was really not feeling well, but I know i wouldn't hear the end of it. I made little tags with her name on them and her birthdate and attached them to these flower candy lollypops i made. i made 36 of them. Then h was actually nice in the morning and made the spinach dip for me. It was an ok day, just long and i felt like poo poo.
sunday i woke up really hurting. S5 is sick too, I did end up doing laundry all day, but nothing major.
I kept S5 home today, he was still coughing.
Work has been so bad, friday I was at the computer for 10 hours, the house was a disaster and nothing got done. Today was more of the same.
I told H that Im not going to continue to live like this much longer. I get nothing done but work. Everything else just falls apart. i have too much to do. so he told me to hire someone. im going to try and find a temporary cleaning/maid person/helper. just to help me catch up. I had to fa 50 people on friday, so this is what I mean... its crazy.. i feel like im going crazy.
That's mostly why I feel run down all the time.
Things are weird between us right now. He really ticked me off friday, but I just don't have the strength right now to care.
sorry for the long vent..:)
Yup 20 kids.. it really wasn't that bad, i was exhausted after, but S5 had such a great day.. he says "mommy, it was such a great day today" and that's all i needed to hear
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
