Hi everyone! Sorry to not have posted for a while...I was just reading everyone's posts and am getting ready to leave work.

I took off my rings about a month after H left. It just hurt too much to wear them. It was a constant reminder of what I thought I had and have lost. Even though it technically isn't over it feels like it sometimes. I just don't know how to save it or if it should be saved. I am still at that crossroads point that I do love him but then I ask myself do I want him and everything he has done back. When I am lonely I want him more than anything but when I look out and see a whole new world with new people and new opportunities I don't know if I want him back. Its so confusing and such an internal struggle.

I have to make that decision. Do I stay and fight or do I end it and throw in the towel (like many others have said).

Me35/H35
D16/SS14
M-1yr/known H 18yrs
1st Bomb: 4/26 OW35
2nd Bomb: 8/17 OW21
Moved out 8/21/08
H filed D on 9/9/08

God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.