Later in the evening I sent him a text "I really do hate you..."
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For me, I feel I've put the anger in check
Ya sure about that?? And what ever happened to leaving him alone???
And...
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About 10pm. H calls. He had just left the party. He said he had thawed out a couple of ribeyes, if he brought them out would I cook them. I said I would.
So...you aren't good enough to be invited to the party (I know, I know, he said you shouldn't be invited, but whatever), but you are good enough for after the party? TOH will be there, she doesn't do anything, she'll cook these for me....get my drift?
What if...now go crazy here...you weren't home? Or you didn't answer your phone? You have to have friends, someone you can go out with that you ARE NOT related to? A friend that lives a couple hours away that you can go visit for the weekend? Something has to change TOH. Something.
I don't believe that you are keeping your anger in check.
H comes and goes as he darn well pleases, and you are fine with this? You take his scraps, the things he tosses your way and gobble them up. Does he ever ask how YOU are? How your life is? How things are going for you?
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We talked like old times
Except TOH, its NOT old times. H has chosen to leave you, to have an affair, to put himself first and you last. He let you get arrested and possibly go to prison and did nothing to help you. He does nothing to show that its old times, other than to walk all over you, use you when you are around, which you are AROUND all the time to be used.
Please. Think about what everyone tries to tell you.
Are you in any form of counseling? I just wish something would reach you, to show you that you deserve so much more than this. That NOTHING will change this way. You will not get your husband back this way.
