I just don't get it. I am working on myself, detatching being a gread dad and enjoying my life but...but I still want to be with this woman.
Oveer the past few weeks I've been getting out, making friends and getting some attention from laidies. Last night I realized why I wasn't interested. I don't have any affection for them.
After everything, I still want to be around her and do little nice things for her and make her happy. The reality of it is that I don't realy like being around her because it is stressful. Those feelings of affection are not fading. Everything else...the pain, sorrow, loss, and sadness are becoming easier. But I still love her and feel such a tremendous amount of affection towards her. I wouldn't be surprised if these feelings never go away.
HTTE, as much as I hate to actually admit it, I feel exactly the same. I know I love her. The pain and hurt and anger have faded. If I dwell on things, the feelings come back, though.
And affection?
For the ladies that I keep coming across...nice ladies. Good looking, sexy, great personalities....
I just have no affection for them. I thought I was interested, but deep down I'm not. I don't feel it. I know who holds my heart.
And so does she. That poses a problem, huh?
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
