I am home on lunch and I am crying. I walked over 2 sets of Hs cowboy boots on the stairs. He has left me in his mind, but physically he is everywhere........I feel dumb for crying, I know this is not working but I am so sad to let it go...........and yet I don't see what else I can do. Ultimately H will have to sell off some of his farm stuff to pay for the D, so he will lose his farm dream (for now anyway) and I will lose my dream of a life w/H and my kids as a family. The kids will lose their mom and dad being together. Where is the winner?
