Detaching when sick is actually kinda normal. My H is very good at it. He can't fix me so he trys not to think about it. At least where I can see it. So anyway, replay sucks. Temper tantrums suck. They just do. Protect your heart. When he says negative, remind yourself you are worth it and you are pretty and you are lovable. I know about having ego stroking it can be very nice.
Threw it in the door and forgot? That just tells you where their heads are at. If he had gotten pulled over for anything, he would have gone to jail. Crazy...
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.