OW may be back, maybe she never left, maybe she called and said she was preggo. Who knows? I am in no mood for speculating about her, she is garbage. She IS the woman in Appaloosa, drawn to the Alpha male (Dan was an officer in the company and she made $10/hr), but she will move on to the next Alpha male she encounters....
H told me during our drive that for 3 days he had been walking around with the feeling like "walking into the vet's office to have your dog put down". So this has been brewing. I am certain it is why he hasn't done dialogue with me, why he skipped retro. He is avoiding all of that b/c he just wants out. When he told me how he was feeling on the drive, I said, "That must really suck, sorry you have been feeling that way". I didn't try to offer solutions even though some jumped to mind. I am changing...so I didn't offer to fix it. Just empathized. He held my hand from time to time on the drive, I am a little mad that he let me hug/kiss/hold hands w/him over the weekend if he felt it was over. Granted I initiated but he responded.
H's mom called this morning to ask how Sunday went. She said H was a crabby A$$ on Saturday, banging and stomping around her house and the farm all day/night. She could tell he was in a fould mood and wanted to make sure he hadn't taken it out on me on Sunday. I dodged/avoided, just told her we went for a drive, lunch, and a movie and I enjoyed it (all of that is true). I just left off the rest b/c I will not talk to her about this stuff any more.
I am done for now. I don't want to be done but what do you say to the man who says: he is done, we are fundamentally different, I want to stay married to him "at all cost even if nobody is happy", nothing ever changes, and of course 'I hate you'.
