I just don't get it. I am working on myself, detatching being a gread dad and enjoying my life but...but I still want to be with this woman.
Oveer the past few weeks I've been getting out, making friends and getting some attention from laidies. Last night I realized why I wasn't interested. I don't have any affection for them.
After everything, I still want to be around her and do little nice things for her and make her happy. The reality of it is that I don't realy like being around her because it is stressful. Those feelings of affection are not fading. Everything else...the pain, sorrow, loss, and sadness are becoming easier. But I still love her and feel such a tremendous amount of affection towards her. I wouldn't be surprised if these feelings never go away.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
