When my partner left me for someone else at first I felt hatred and I could feel the love I had fading fast..that's how it happens if you don't db your arse off.

Acts of love twoards your partner that are reciprocated will get you through to the other side, just be kind, honest, and you will get there. Hatred and running away in despair isn't a solution. Love is the best medicine, its an act, not a feeling.

Love is a choice we make. The affair is what pushes us to make that painful choice. I feel better for making the healthy one. You must feel the same way too. I can only imagine all the stress and anger and pain you felt during the "fog" of your affair. Its heartwrenching to hear about all of this. It just makes me sad.

Love your husband, that's all you have to do. \:\)