I've preinted your thread and have been reading it over the past couple of days. I must say that I haven't finished it yet. Meanwhile, I realize that we're similar in that we're both away from our spouses although the distance in my case is larger (I am in Egypt and H is in America). Nonetheless, we both have a feeling that being away contributed to where we are now.
You said that you believe in giving out positive vibes and doing visualization. I, too, believe in that. Like you, I had forgotton to practice it for a few months. But, I realize that it's never too late so I do it as much as I can now.
I see that you haven't posted in a few days. I hope things are getting better for you.
You mentioned in one of your postings about the "making her happy newsletter". Can you tell me what this is?