Oh Jojo, people would notice. You matter in this world. You know that. Your parents would know, your friends, people you touch that you dont even realize.
I know how you feel. I have been with my h for 30 years, since I am 19 years old. This is hard and it sucks. But it is what it is. And there really isnt anything that we could do about it. So, we have to choose to live our lives as best we could. And believe that one day we will be happy again.