Had a wonderful Sunday at home with the kids...isn't it a joy to just be HOME...
I chose my title because I have noticed that I am having happy days lately. At night, sometimes it's hard and yes I still do cry sometimes just before I fall asleep, but I think it's getting better, bit by bit.
Not sure it will ever feel 'normal' again in my life, but I think that I have decided to take from this all the positives and learn that in life, when you get trhown the hard stuff, you take it and look for the good stuff in it.
Kids and I went for an autumn walk...we picked up lots of leaves and other great stuff to make some autumn arrangements !
I hope you are all doing well....and I hope to be posting more positiveness on this thread again !
Lots of love to you all xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
You are making the most of what you have. And I don't know about you, but periodically I am reminded that so many others have it worse, and I am not just talking about marital demise. There are people out there with terminally sick children, people one paycheck away from being homeless with their kids, you get my drift.
Where have things been left with you and your husband?
You are doing everything you can do to move on, heal, and enjoy raising your children. I am very proud of you.
Where have things been left with you and your husband?
Well...I guess they are back to where they were this summer...we avoid talking about D. He still talks about us as if there is still an 'us'. This weekend he even caught himself giving me an arm around my shoulder whilst walking away from the bar at the hockey with S5 in his other arm.
I don't know, I just don't think about a lot of stuff as much anymore... I mean, I don't analyze everything to death.
It's better this way.
Love to you lwb xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Thanks YR, you have no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that !
You have been one of the ones that gives me hope. I no longer wait for H to come back everyday, but I know, because of people like you that it is possible that maybe ONE day we may get a second chance at our marriage.
Everyone here has helped me grow and stand on my own two feet again, emotionally.
I am thankful for each and everyone for that !
YR - please keep sending the fairy dust, for it has helped me inmensly ! xxxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cinders, You've come a long way and your journey hasn't been an easy one. Yet, today, you are one of the most beautiful posters on the board. You provide inspiration to all those who have come along after you.
As you walk the path, you are learning that you don't need to sit and over analyze each and every word, move, behavior that he exhibits. You are learning that you have absolutely no control over what he says, thinks or does. However, you've learned that you have control over what you do and say...that's what is important. You are the "rock" in your situation. You have a solid foundation and from that foundation, your children have the stability that they need at this time.
You are doing very well, my friend. You are right where you are suppose to be at this time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Cinders, I can't add to Snod's post except to say that your future will be truly blest because of who you are. You are a shinning example and I really hope many posters take how you have behaved on board.
Dear Snodderly, I'm not sure I deserve such a wonderful post...but I do see that I've grown and I do see that I have learnt to see things in a different light. I am happy now.
I truly think the wonderful people on this board taught me to survive. Gave me strength, helped me not to give up. Here I found the love that I so missed, the friendship that I needed so desperately. The compassion that was needed in the beginning to grow strong enough to find my own positive mental attitude !
If it weren't for all that, I wouldn't be where I am today.
THANK YOU ALL FOR THAT !
Snodderly, I think you know that you have been one of the ones who gave me great advice and helped me see things when I was going in the wrong direction ! Thank you.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Naej, to you too....thanks...you too have been one of the very special ones among these boards ! Thank you for believing in me. It means a lot to me, to know that you do.
May God Bless you too, for you have been a true friend ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
