Cinders, You've come a long way and your journey hasn't been an easy one. Yet, today, you are one of the most beautiful posters on the board. You provide inspiration to all those who have come along after you.
As you walk the path, you are learning that you don't need to sit and over analyze each and every word, move, behavior that he exhibits. You are learning that you have absolutely no control over what he says, thinks or does. However, you've learned that you have control over what you do and say...that's what is important. You are the "rock" in your situation. You have a solid foundation and from that foundation, your children have the stability that they need at this time.
You are doing very well, my friend. You are right where you are suppose to be at this time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.