Daisy thanks for your concern. You are very sweet :). Seriously though, those names are actually pet names. We use them for each other all the time. I know it might sound mean, but we have done so for at least 5 years. For example I called him dumba** twice today, so it is not just him. The only mean thing he is really doing is acting annoyed at my presence from time to time, and calling me his roommate, but this was just more strange and unexpected. He is not being overwhelmingly positive by ANY means, but he is not being mean either.
Ali-agreed about the physical contact. I had thought maybe this was an experiment that could work, but it doesn't seem to have paid off. From now on I will not be initiating any more physical affection beyond poking him or something like this if we are joking around. Actually after you responded, H called me downstairs to watch something on his video game. As usual, the 2 comfort zones are my bottom and my stomach; he patted both. In terms of the roommate comment, in the past I had said that I was happy to be his roommate and his friend while he worked on things. I actually AM OK with this for awhile, provided things start improving over the next few months, but it's weird that nothing has been verbalized.
All--I think the only thing I can do DB-wise, assuming I stay in the house, is MAJOR GAL, and not being home much. A friend has already suggested that I get really dressed up to go out dancing and come home really late without much of an explanation. I will probably also work pretty late every night. I don't really mind this, but there is a fine line between giving space and trying to show him what an improved R could look like. At some point I am going to need an understanding about what it is that he is actually looking for from this. This is still a weird limboland sitch. I have no idea if H is going on this alleged biz trip tomorrow, but as I've heard nothing about it yet, I assume he may not be. If not, and if he never brings it up, then I will just be sort of de facto here.
Anyway crossing my fingers for no R conversations today, unless they are positive...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
