Nothing too new here. We are still talking a lot, especially now since it is the weekend and he has more free time. The three hour difference is getting on my nerves though. But it's okay. We are making it work.
He is generally unhappy where he is and can't wait to get home. It all feels very de ja vu. Oh well. It just gives him more motivation to work hard so he can come home sooner. He seems to think he will pass his test on Tuesday and be home next week. We will see. The military does not usually work that fast. But I just validate and encourage and never show my skeptisism. I will be here one way or the other.
We were talking last night and I told him I missed him and he said that being there made him miss everything. Not quite the romantic statement I was hoping for but oh well. I am certainly included in "everything." He is also talking about wanting money so he can buy me a souvenior. Which is adorable. I told him he is very sweet.
Also last night the topic of living together sort of came up and left me a little agitated. He was talking about wanting to come home and I said that it will be nice but he will have a new set of problems to deal with when he gets here. Like finding a job and a place to live. I told him I trusted him to figure it out. In all honesty I was baiting a little. . .I had just finished telling him about how crazy I am going living with my parents right now and how much I wanted out. So I was hoping he would say something about moving in together (I know, I know. Drat those expectations!) He agreed and said he would figure it out. I then said "I figured you would just more back in with C and K" which are the people he has been staying with the past few months since the split. He said "probably at first until I decide on something" So who knows what that means. I could speculate and say it means until he decides to move in with me but that's all it would be. . .specualtion. Which I find leads to expectations!
So I am just doing my own thing as usual. Read a whole book yesterday. I devour fiction! I'm gonna go back to the library on Tuesday and get more. It's keeping my mind busy which is always good.
I feel like we are right on the edge of a cliff and I don't know when something is gonna push us off and get the ball rolling. I don't want to be pushy and scare him away so I am hanging back for the most part but it is getting annoying. Especially now that my current job is cutting my hours back so much. I won't be able to keep that job and be able to count on it for steady income. So the new job would be full time but then things might get tight financially if I move out, plus there is storing up a deposit. The only way I see this working for me is if hubby does it with me. Otherwise it will probably be January before I can escape the looney bin! I hope he does come home in the next week or two because that would give him time to find a new job before I start my new job (if I get this one) and then it could all work out. But then that brings the problem of him getting a job in his city and me being here. Ugh!!!
Sorry for all that rambling. It's probably very confusing. I just needed to get it all out on "paper" makes me feel a little better. I have my next counseling session on Thursday so maybe I can work through a bit of this then. If only hubby would make up his mind!
Oh well. At least things are going well between us and I am really getting a chance to show him how supportive I can be, even in tough times. It's all a deposit in the "bank" right ITH
