Not much to report...still feel okay about my life.
H is very confusing. I sense in him that he wishes he wanted to be back with me...if that makes sense, but feels like he can't go back after the decision he made and is too afraid things would go back to the way they were.
He dropped D off yesterday and I flirted a bit...he responded by basically saying he wanted to "do me" every which way from Sunday but sex confused him. He said he "wants" me all the time, and misses me sometimes but doesn't know if the love he has for me is the "right love". Those comments came out of left field...totally unsolicited by me since I was keeping things light with just being flirty and when he said them I was speechless but could feel a R talk coming on (and he hates that) so I kind kind of giggled and said "ummmm...wow...well you could have stopped at the I always WANT you part" and winked at him. I seriously didn't know how to take the comments or what to say. He also said, during the conversation, that I looked REALLY nice. That made me feel good. About two hours later he called to say he had mowed my Dad's lawn and that they had a nice chat.
