I really enjoyed reading your post about the convo you had last night with your 14 year old daughter. You are a terrific father and she sounds like a fantastic young girl.
Something resonated with me in one of your posts. I noticed that right around the anniversary of my separation, I took a step back. Started feeling a little down and questioning so many things. You know... if I had only done this or that. Yesterday I took my little girl (7) to a farm where we picked pumpkins, watched pig races, etc. etc. One year ago, I took her to that same farm and that was right after the separation. Brought back a lot of tough memories, but we had a fantastic day.
One thing was interesting was that the kidlet only remembered going to this fair last year when in fact we had been there with her mom a few years ago. The three of us had such a nice time. It's unbelievable how our ex spouses refused to focus on the good times and keep the family together.
Gotta move forward!
Also...
Take your time with the dating, you will know when it is right. Do not base your dating future on the recent experience you have had with 2 girls, that is nothing! Once you truly get out there, you will see that there is a huge market for your services! Just need to find the right one.