I have to say that I went on this date. I do have to say Im not ready to do it again. It was odd, weird and awkard. Although this guy wants to go out again, Im going to tell him Im not ready. I just didnt feel it. I didnt feel it was right or anything. We did have a nice time though. He just took me to dinner and we talked alot. It was all just not right. He even kissed me good night and after that all I wanted to do was come in my house and cry. I didnt cry, but that was the feeling I had. I dont know why I felt that way, but I did. Anyway, it was like kissing my brother. lol.
Surprise to me, My H came to church with us this morning.
He asked did it bother me that he came and i told him no, I was glad he came. He hasnt bothered me much yesterday or today. He is very down and out. Maybe church was the best place for him today. I dont know, but Im thankful for the baby steps.
And Lin...I know Im not done yet. THere are still lots of feelings for my H. I think I need to go back and say, I wont be done and ready for anything until I know its over 100% and I still cant say that. I cant say I would never consider it. But he will not waltz back into my life.
But I will say how flattered I am that there are some guys who would love to take me out! Now my H knows this, and that he could lose alot! Not that going out with this guy was to get a reaction out of my H...but I did tell this guy I wasnt ready for anything serious, he knew this, but I believe he is looking for way more that I am willing to give. So, how do I bow out gracefully??
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
