M, I'm very worried about you and your h's health right now. You both are under a lot of stress and there's not way to get away from it. Your h's BP and the numbness are signs of stress on the body and he needs to be in a physician's office pronto. Of course, I understand that there's nothing you can do to get him there. He's got to make that decision on his own. His debt, losing his job, living w/the ow...who is most likely putting pressure on him for money, home and the bills are all piling up around him.
For you, it's work, your h, the bills, home and trying to maintain a stable life for your children. How is your BP? Are you okay?
Please, please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
