I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

Last night, nothing happened...no ML, no chatting, nothing. It's freaking me out a bit to be honest as H has these weird ideas in his head. He says that we never talked about anything, yet I need to give him space so am not trying to talk to him about anything personal. He has said recently that he is not sure about the dynamic between us, but he is not making any visible efforts. He does not touch me, and hasn't said one complimentary thing to me since I've been here. We have not spent any real time together, beyond in the bed, where he is usually reading and I am trying to sleep.

As I mentioned before, tomorrow H is potentially going on a business trip, but I have heard nothing about it, so this is limbo as well. I am not going to bring it up though, and see what happens.

Now I don't know if I should ask H to spend time with me today or not as one of our big issues in the past was what we did with our free time and me being controlling. However as he sees things now, there is no interaction. I feel sort of trapped like I am not sure which direction is the right one to take. I just long for a GOOD R talk, but he knows how I feel. I made this abundantly clear on Tuesday. I just feel like I have been being judged all weekend.

Anyway hoping today will be a nice calm day. I may try to find something to take me out of the house for awhile again, but what I really want is some nice, light and fun time with my H.

ITH