Hi All, first T2L, a real hug. I have hope for you. It took you awhile to get to this place. I have to remind that to myself every day. I know that H was with OW last night and it bugged me. Today H played golf and I was waiting for him to call D and finally I called him at 5 because I had plans to go out to listen to Irish music downtown. I asked if he was going out and he started asking where I was going and I said why do you want to know. I asked how his night was and he starts babbling about saying he went out for awhile. So I let slip out don't bother we all know where you went. I think he was mad. But I got ready to go out and as I was leaving H walks in. He said you look really nice, we chatted for a minute and I leave. No hug or anything. I went and watched the band which was really good but all I kept thinking about is that H is the one who loved this type of music and here I am alone. I got home and he was already gone. Don't know if he is going to church tomorrow but I won't count on it. Your right JGrind, we both built a closer relationship with God, I have faith but I still try to control. It is tough to just let go. Your letter that your H gave you was basically what my H said to me but saying he was never happy for 21 years (originally it was 12), I pray every night for reconcillation.
Also -- just wondering if you all are still wearing your wedding band? I am -- and I know H saw it when I left but I can't bear to take it off...just wondering. take care.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
