Thank you both, sorry I've been away for a few days, it is really hard for me to post every day. The new IC is NOT a DB kind of therapist. I think I got a HUGE dose of "tough love". But he thinks with all the cheating and lying my H has done, how much more time do I really want to invest in this. So I was totally reeling from that, then Thurs. we had a big blow up because I went out with a friend and he has slept on the couch for the last 2 nights and my D9 this morning said "I saw you on the couch" kind of as a question. He didn't respond but I feel like this is a passive-aggressive behavior he is punishing me, I knew it on Fri and couldn't eat all day and I'm so tired! How much more of this am I supposed to take??

I get the whole GAL thing and acting "as if" but when do we get around to R negotiations if he continually verbally knocks me down.

To Sir, I keep thinking about the whole A and I'm not sure I can ever get past it. So maybe I'm just postponing the inevitable. I keep hoping each day I will wake up with an answer. At least that's a change, before I was just hoping for the nightmare to end.

Maybe this is progress.


Me 46/H 48
M 19/T 20
S 16 D 9
Bomb 2/9/08
OW 2/29/08
Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)

Found proof 4/11/08
Piecing ? 8/24/08

"When the rain washes you clean... you'll know"