I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

Thanks Opt and Ali,

I just went to lunch with a friend and had 2 glasses of wine. Now a bit tipsy and catching the train back. I've been gone for about 5 hours now...

Anyway it was good to talk to my friend who, though single, said she also believes in marriage. She did want me to be harsher on H though, thinks I am letting him get away with too much.Hard when someone's not DBing to explain. I think everyone is right though that I am doing too much. I bought all the makings for a nice dinner and am about to go home and start cooking. This is in line with what I want to do though.

I don't know about the physical affection. I really was trying to be light and playful, and I still think it came across OK. However, from this point on I am going to hang back on this. Now he knows that I am into the physical affection aspect, he can do with this what he will.

He said he just wants to hang out and watch shows tonight. Was hoping for something where we actually left the house together. I don't want R talk, and I wish he didn't act like I was someone who needs to be hidden away. That really doesn't feel very nice. We haven't been out together in months. It's at the house only these days...

Anyway, waiting for the train now. My aim is to get home, drop the groceries off, and take the dogs for a walk. I don't feel like hanging out with H too much at the moment...

ITH