I know my telling OW we have been flirting and intimate did me more harm than good..at least for now.
Hubby is so livid..says he cant trust me..he wont even talk. Said he wont put any feelings in writing ever again for fear I will use it against him. I did tell him.."Thats ok... I know how you feel..you have told me over and over"
My goals were to break them up...if he has feelings for both, I was hoping she would kick him to the curb and I would be the only one left to focus on.
Well it dodnt go that way..she didnt believe me (young and nieve)
My only hope is that I did plant that shadow of doubt and she will begin to be jealous and insecure.
I am stressed for today..We should have to see each other for soccer games. I can gaurantee he will not be friendly at all, which is hurtful due to one week ago I got the I love You and we ML and tender kissing.
He is supposed to move stuff this weekend, at least that is what he threatened.
I am supposed to close our joint checking... if he stopped his direct deposit for his paycheck. I dont want to if he has not..not sure how long it takes for a Company to go from direct deposit to actual checks. I dont want to mess with payday.
But he uses his debit card without any worries of what money is there. He overdrew the account again(2nd time this week) this time with taking her to dinner, liquor store, bar and groceries for her house.... pisses me off.
So... I am truely trying to accept his choice... but he is only cutting me out because I ratted him out..so ..is it his true choice?
My heart hurts over all this, tomorrow is 7 months to the day this has been going on.
I just am so scared to let go. He was the love of my life.
Like you, I guess I am deciding if the door is shut or slightly cracked.
