Rate My LRT - NO CONTACT letter.

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Thanks for the input everyone, but I never sent it and I am glad I didn't.

Why bother trying to communicate with a WAW? She is so fogged up right now she couldn't tell you if it is day or night. I might as well mail that letter to the cat for all the good it would do me now.

Since I wrote this letter, I have done much better with detachment, and this has helped me redefine our interactions. I have gone very dark and go out of my way to avoid any and all contact with her. Any contact I am forced to have and I have been very cold; disinterested in her or what she has to say. I am honestly repulsed by her presence right now, and the guilt that riddles her has turned her into a shell of her former self.

I know that this policy may be counter-productive in the long run, but I found that I was unwilling (and unable) to put aside my self respect and dignity to placate and "pet" my WAW while she is having an EA (at least) with another man. She cannot have both: Me and Him. I'm working on ME right now, so I cannot concern myself with her feelings right now.

With all the progress I have made in detachment, I still need to work on patience. Patience for her EA to fail, patience for her fog to lift, patience that the fantasy world she envisioned will never materialize. I also need to come to terms with the fact that this will all happen AFTER the D (Texas is only 60 days).

"Divorce is not death"

I honestly don't know if I could ever take her back, but I will cross that bridge when she comes out of her fog...assuming she ever does.