Well not so much relaxed as forcing positivity in a way. While I was listening to music before H came I had this overwelming feeling that I wanted to hug him when he came in the door. I did this twice, it was sort of forcing myself on him, but I am not sure how to explain it. I said "you know you want me to hug you." He said "should I pretend?" He was smiling though, and I said "sure." I know that sounds bad, but it was light and my thought is now to have a sense of humor about the whole thing. It really is ridiculous in a way, so my current as-if is that he sees it too. I am acting how I would together, but without the ILYs.
You're right about the trying too hard thing, though I actually am being genuine with cleaning. I have a lot of energy to burn and cleaning is helping me. However I should quit offering to help with things. I offer breakfast, shopping etc. Might be a bit much. Am just out now-about to head to lunch.
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
