Tonight he has ignored my text - ( i know i should not be doing it )
My trouble is - that i get comfortable and see tiny little signs that he is interested ,and then he blows it out of the water. Is that normal. I realise today I should of been more positive and more helpful.
I do get annoyed that when his family is around he plays this happy - pleased to see me person and then he does 180 on that next time.
I know he has a problem with me critising him. I think I have to have a mantra when i am going to see him - Just be nice.
Am i meant to do that even when i feel like screaming at him. Does repentance for A mean not showing how you truly feel ? I have changed so much in last couple of years. i used to yell a lot and now I control that. But not saying that I am annoyed about how he treats me is very hard. At the end of the day , I am the mother of his children. Surely he has some responsibility to his children to show me some respect.
i don't want his children to think less of him as a dad. But man he makes it hard to fight for him when they are hurt or angry. He just does not see that in them. He is so bound in himself.
