Trying2Live-New Post #2

[Trying2live]

Ok Im pooped its after midnight just gonna update you all a little and then come back on tomorrow afternoon, have a morning football game with son.

OMG OMG OMG you guys ok listen to this.....

So he just left. Its 10:30. I walk him to door and send son off to brush his teeth. My H reaches out and HUGS ME!!!! HOLY COW!

We have had almost no contact and no physical contact for 5 1/2 months. He didn't want to let go. He held on to me. I say wow your hug feels really good and I try to pull away but he's holding me. So I finally he pulls away and I flirt with him and he says you are you soliciting me? I say well I'm sure you can understand that I'm by my self and you are not. He says how do you know that? I say I don't.(I'm wondering if he's with her?) I smile and say hey you know where I live. He says yes I do.
Then he says I'm going to be around more. I say great. He says, that's what my son wants right?(I think he was feeling my answer out) I say well no it's what we all want but it needs to be what you want. So we smile at each other and I close the door.

OMG OMG OMG. I still have NO expectations, but it sure felt good to have my H hold me just for a moment.

Ok Jgrind I'm gonna reply to you tomorrow. I know you mentioned that admiration needs but did you take the test in the book i mentioned. Because you need to meet YOUR H top 5 need per the book. Now YOUR H's needs may be different than mine. So you need to take the test in the back of the book as if it was him so you can figure out what they are. There would be no need to meet admiration if it wasn't one of his top 5 make sense?

So explain to me that last line in your last post. Why can't he forgive you or what ever it was he said to you. Sorry I cant remember. Also some of the talk is fog babble remember so take it with a grain of salt.