Mixed Signals or Just My Imagination ?

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W just moved out yesterday. I was extreemly angry about the whole thing. Still am. Though I don't explode on her, I do give an earful to my buddy at work. I still cannot accept the betrayal of our vows (though there is no OM. If there was, I don't know how I would act).

She even implied (by her voice and tone, never by actual words) that she needed my help. I helped pack a bit the other night, but I had planned to work, so I could not drop everything to help her today.

The night before, when she was packing up, things got so tense at one point, bc she is not interpreting things in the way I mean them (that tone thing again, or she is interpreting everything throught a lens of guilt), that I threatened to call the cops and have her removed.

That felt good for a moment, but only created a very defensive, nasty response. Went upstairs for 15 min. and came back down, apoligised and we worked through the issue, and I did help her pack. (BTW, she will never forget that I threatened to call the cops, nor will she forgive me for saying it, if I know her.......unless the forgiveness fairy smites her on the head).

About noon the next day she calls and asks if she can transfer some $$$ to turn on gas, water, elec. She has already borrowed close to $4000 from her brother and mother, with no means of paying them back, much less paying her rent, utilities, etc.

I authorized her initial request of $100. She later tells me she transferred $300 and hopes it did not mess me up. ( could have, but I am actually making decent $$ again for now).

I had plans for that $$, and it wasn't to finance her 'freedom dream'. But I want her to see she needs me on some level, and that I can provide for her.

Anyway, mixed feelings, but I call later around supper time and invite her to go out to eat with D6 and I.

Although we have some $$ talks to work through, I think the small peace offering of dinner was appreciated, though she was in the middle of unpacking with the help of her M and D.

Whats the point? I have to decide if I want to slam the door closed as she walks out, or keep it cracked, so she can come back if she decides to.