Where there are shadows, let me bring light

[mishka422]

I don't want people to know that I am the woman who is empty, hollow, no one. I lie and pretend like everything is okay. And I wonder, what is it that makes it impossible for someone to love me?

Is it because I am no one?

Lola, I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face after reading your letter. You have so eloquently poured out your deepest heart and I appreciate every word. I identify with all of what you have said as I'm sure most of the rest of us here do.

I want you to know that you are not no one! You are so many things!

You are a mother.
You are a powerful, soulful woman.
You are a grandmother.
You are a wife.
You are a spiritual woman.
You are a friend.

Most of all, Lola, I consider you a friend of mine. In my book, that makes you extra special!

I am not sure what else to say right now. My head is spinning thinking about the horrible pain you are in. I have had so much healing in the last few weeks but I too have thought that I am nothing and don't deserve to ever have any happiness again because I lost the one thing that identified me. But you are finding so many other things that identify you.

Lola, through Christ you can do and be ANYTHING! I know that you know that sweetie. Hold on to Him and he will show you the way through this. He is more than enough.