Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Ya know those do sound kinda good..... Belgian waffles with butter and syrup. Mmmmmmmmmm wafffffllleesss......
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Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Well W finally said something about the ring. We were having a conversation while she was getting ready for work today. She had just taken a shower and had shaved her legs and such when she came into the room where I was. She began to get dressed while under her towel. Quite a switch from yesterday when I came into the bathroom while she was finishing up her shower and proceeded to get ready for mine. I shaved while she toweled off and both of us were in full view so to speak. I even kissed her on the lips and got a hug. Well that was yesterday......more on that later. Back today... I looked at her and said "ya know Ive seen you nude a thousand times before" She said I know but Im mad at you for going through my purse. (this in reference to me getting the my ring out of her change purse when she asked me to get her wallet to pay the pizza guy LAST WEEK. Now Ive been wearing the ring for a week now. She told me she was mad at me for going through the change purse. That it was hers and I had no right ect. I said It wasn't her ring to hold on to and that it was my mistake for letting her take it off my finger. I said I was sorry for do it and W said I could have asked for it back. To which I said I didn't think she would give it back.
After a while she was leaving for work and said her goodbye's to the kids. Then at my turn she simply said for me to have a good night or whatever it was. I was upset. I answered rather irritatedly for her to do the same. Then she left. Yes I did wrong but I wanted my ring back to show the world I was married. Something tells me this was her projecting her anger at me for something else too. She had a whole week to bust me and she didn't. Why now?
To get back to yesterday.... It was the day of her brothers wedding. An entire day or family and friends and a few surprises. at the unique ceremony we all stood around the bridal party (it was outside) while they said their vows. W and I stood next to M and D IL. I put my arm around her waist. I couldn't help but wonder what went through her mind and the forsake all others part.... Throughout the party afterwards she looked more and more unhappy and on edge. not only about a family issue but maybe the reminders of vows in such. Though she wasn't nasty to me she was a tad cold to me.
I spoke to her tonight for night nights with the kids...she was getting sick with a cold so it was hard to say if she was still mad. She did answer my general questions about work but it was still tuff to say...
Im still praying like mad. I need strength and hope cuz I'm getting down here. If you read this and if you believe say a prayer for all of us who are going through this hell. Peace.
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Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
An update. Yeah its been awhile since I posted. Truth is somethings have changed.We had a long talk a few weeks back about us. I told her I knew she was "seeing" OM. Apparently they broke it off because she said that he is nothing more then a customer now. Her moods have been friendly towards me and we have continued to ML and say ILY. We have even spoke of moving to a different state for a "fresh start" This was her idea.Quite frankly its a damn good one too in my opinion. Ive wanted to move out of the state we're in because jobs around here suck. It would get her away from the bad influences and allow us to grow once more. I told her I was serious. I didn't want to make all plans, get ready to go and then, have her decide not to go...again. Once I said this to her she looked me straight in the eye and said she wasn't lying, she wants to go. Lately it seems shes been down. Maybe because of the holidays and the fact that her sister and brothers are now out of state. Yes they talk regularly but its not the same for her. I know that she has been getting some heat from her mother too.
Me? Well I continue to work out. I CAN SEE MY RIBS!!! Well the first few anyways heheh. I'm not giving up on this. Ive missed a few days due to weather and a few days of being sick but I drag myself in to the gym 5 times a week for a 1/2 hour. No its not much but its what I can do. Other than that I'm still praying, still kicking!!! Happy Holidays to all!!!
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
Flash back two days after Christmas….The night before my wife went out with her cousins something that they do every once and awhile. What I didn’t know is that she had left the shin dig to go out with OM. And alienating her sister who was in town and wanted to spend time with her. The next day we go over the in laws house and my MIL takes my wife to the upstairs bedroom and starts to berate her over the previous night. Long story short… OM and wife’s cheating ways have been exposed to all. Afterwards she came downstairs to see me standing there…..I heard the entire convo. I suspected she was up to something but couldn't figure out a way to bring it up. It seems the OM had also bought her a very nice phone for Christmas which Id love to put a 1” drill bit through…. She of course lied about it and said she got a deal on it at the local phone store. Yeah I bet! MIL blew that open for me because that came up too.
Obviously we didn’t stay long and the ride home was quite. Once we got home and got the kids settled in I went for an impromptu ride. I couldn’t stay there because I was going to blow….Yes an 85 Monte with a 350 Chevy motor will light up the tires very nicely when your PO’d even with studs on the tires.
After I collected my thoughts I went back home. By this time she was in the bedroom crying. I went off on her quietly but I got my point across. I told her I put up with this crap for 3 years, the lies the crap and that I knew about the OM. I can’t say how but I did know. I said if the situation was revered what would have she done? Kicked me out of course. I asked about the phone and she confirmed it. I then asked what she got him for Christmas. She said nothing. Yeah right. I told her I forgave her but this has got to stop. It’s either us or him. I found her PA uncontested divorce papers and tore them up in front of her. I told her that there would be NO way she would ever get that from me. Im not leaving. I said a few other things but I don’t remember them atm.
Flash forward present day….she’s sleeping on the couch again. No ILY or anything which was a lie anyways. She is still seeing OM. No I didn’t expect it to end. Her lies are getting more and more creative. I usually don’t respond to them because I’ve gone dark. My attitude towards her is neutral as can be and she knows it. I don’t react to her in the ways that I used to. She on the other hand is playing nice but I know stuff is bugging her.
My routine hasn’t changed. I’m still working out everyday. Still enjoying my kids company And doing things with them. I’m still in the marital bed and don’t intend on leaving it. She cooked me my favorite dinner for my birthday and celebrated a little by eating dinner with us before she had to go to work. She continues to do nice things without hint of attitude and tries to engage me in friendly conversation. When she does my tone says the same…dim/dark. I was on her computer the other day to update her spyware and run a scan. I saw that she was looking into apartments and section 8 apartments. Nice thought but around here, there’s at least a 2 year waiting list. She’s even been on cheap apts.com but I doubt she’ll find anything there. We’ll see if she even goes through with it. So the ride is still not over it seems…only difference is this time she got caught and got called out on the carpet about it. Me well I'm good. As I said I'm working out and praying ALOT. Yes I'm mad but I'm not as bad as I used to be. I'm keeping expectations to 0 and have been. Ive contacted a lawyer but they cant do much since we're still in the same house. My faith is in God and his plan for us.
Tune in tomorrow….same bat time same bat channel
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Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
