I'm thinking it may be time for me to leave. This is like the last security blanket, and checking in every day, no matter how much I love the people here and no matter how appreciative I am of the help is keeping me from moving fully forward.

I can't stay in summer 2006 forever. I want to focus on here and now and life I have with DH post-bomb. I don't want to dredge up old bodies or look for old ghosts.

One last hurdle was overcome for me in the past few weeks, one big, huge, ginormous barrier between us, and H was nothing but amazing.

I have so much gratitude for this place and the people who helped me along the way. I know I would not have the R and life I have now without this place, this experience. There are no regrets, only appreciation that I was lucky enough to come through the fire a stronger, better, happier, more grounded person.

Thank you...really. I am finally living life.

SD

Me: 40
H: 43
H had EA from 2/06-9/06
Bomb 5/06
Piecing since 9/2006
3/2008: Boundary setting
7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb.
8/2010: Marriage finally on track!